With age comes wisdom ??

           In my last blog I spoke of a trip we had taken to try and find our way in life. At that point I wasn't sure where I was going with regard to this cancer and how we were to survive.But it was the dead of winter with storms marching across the country And here we were setting out on this mad dash across the US
           Today Sharon and I were to be on the road on our way to visit Aja our Granddaughter in Ohio and it seems that a little snow has stymied us. I rationalize that that I don't want to put our car at risk or we can't do the drive in one day or that the weather is bad. So what is Wisdom; reacting to fear, or understanding the possibility of failure. Could be the understanding of consequences of ones actions.
            However a person can lock their selves into a state of never moving a step from their doors.
         
           Mike and Twana welcomed us with open arms Allana and Alexis became the bright spots in our lives and I felt that nothing could go wrong ever again, I had some good days and some not so good I signed at the VA as we no longer had money for insurance They took me to the oncology unit right a way and started assigning test to be done over the next couple of months. On the up side I started to make plans to go back to School.. I had managed my Cancer treatments and according to my doctors I had done a good job; what was needed by the system were more doctor's assistants. So I went to the State signed papers took some tests, scheduled classes and felt that life was good.I was to be a Physicians Assistant.
           Loma Linda (The VA hospital) Started blood tests and did a PET scan (positron emission tomography scan) over a matter of weeks and on one occasion Twana drove me in for one of my bad days She had a cold and was miserable her self .
           Sharon and I started to look for a place to live I could get a subsidy from the state of California through unemployment as I would be going to school under a government plan I felt like I was taking my life back   We were some where near Paris California having just looked a house in a junk yard. (Brought a laugh) The cell phone rang, The call was from the hospital giving me the news that the cancer was back and I was short term terminal.               


          
                

How we beat Cancer

Sharon and I have made plans over the years some good and a lot not so good. That said we go on with this story;
               By the end of the week, (the middle of January 2001) I was driving a truck loaded with our stuff while Sharon piloted the car on our way to California. I was a week out of the hospital and for the first time in some months feeling good physically and in spirit. There had been times in the last year when I felt like I was hanging on by my finger tips now I could do anything. (HaHa) We were on highway 40 on a route that has some of the worst weather in the Country along it, We were going to our Son's house in sunny California so what could go wrong. We would stop at Barry's house in Midland Texas All would be good and it was. Until we got to Albuquerque New Mexico I tried to go under a sign ( portico ) at a gas station barking (Scraping) the top of the truck and Sharon got sick we had to stop for a couple of days to rest even so  She did not feel better until after we left, later realizing She had altitude sickness.
               We rolled on in to California dropping on to interstate 15 from I 40 With My wife leading the way/ I would go back to School and build a life again for Sharon and I, All would be good for us.
                I hadn't been in this part of the country since the sixties seeing the country side I think helped with my good feelings some how opening that page of my life in my mind back to a time when we were first Married.        

On we go

            The coast was beautiful and for this time of the year it was warm on the beach, Jj was seeing the ocean for the first time and managed to get his new shoes wet. Sharon and I really enjoyed the day one of those days when the air was soft and you could see for ever.
            That after noon we had driven back to Savanna then walked from the hotel to the Lady and Sons Restaurant We had the buffet I was surprised that James and Lisa paid for the meal for us, the food was good. Leaving the restaurant we walked down to River Street planning to go on the Haunted tour around the city Street musicians were playing and lots of people walked throughout the area; the waterfront and Ships reminded me a little of Boston some of the places we visited seemed to have been locked in time.
            The tour sucked and we resolved to cover some of the places visited the following day. After Breakfast we headed back to the old cemetery to walk among the monuments reading the final words and statements feeling a little of the soul of the place. that evening we headed back to Augusta to see the rest of the family. Continues tomorrow