With age comes wisdom ??

           In my last blog I spoke of a trip we had taken to try and find our way in life. At that point I wasn't sure where I was going with regard to this cancer and how we were to survive.But it was the dead of winter with storms marching across the country And here we were setting out on this mad dash across the US
           Today Sharon and I were to be on the road on our way to visit Aja our Granddaughter in Ohio and it seems that a little snow has stymied us. I rationalize that that I don't want to put our car at risk or we can't do the drive in one day or that the weather is bad. So what is Wisdom; reacting to fear, or understanding the possibility of failure. Could be the understanding of consequences of ones actions.
            However a person can lock their selves into a state of never moving a step from their doors.
         
           Mike and Twana welcomed us with open arms Allana and Alexis became the bright spots in our lives and I felt that nothing could go wrong ever again, I had some good days and some not so good I signed at the VA as we no longer had money for insurance They took me to the oncology unit right a way and started assigning test to be done over the next couple of months. On the up side I started to make plans to go back to School.. I had managed my Cancer treatments and according to my doctors I had done a good job; what was needed by the system were more doctor's assistants. So I went to the State signed papers took some tests, scheduled classes and felt that life was good.I was to be a Physicians Assistant.
           Loma Linda (The VA hospital) Started blood tests and did a PET scan (positron emission tomography scan) over a matter of weeks and on one occasion Twana drove me in for one of my bad days She had a cold and was miserable her self .
           Sharon and I started to look for a place to live I could get a subsidy from the state of California through unemployment as I would be going to school under a government plan I felt like I was taking my life back   We were some where near Paris California having just looked a house in a junk yard. (Brought a laugh) The cell phone rang, The call was from the hospital giving me the news that the cancer was back and I was short term terminal.